Queria mas nunca dá!

 Sabe aquela coisa que você diria: ai que ódio! ?

Então!

Tem tanta coisa que, ultimamente, me lembra esta frase. 
Principalmente quando nada dá… pra fazer. 

Agora eu sinto em mim uma gana de fazer tudo ao mesmo tempo mas eu fico pensando: como antes eu conseguia?

Tenho criatividade! 
Tenho vontade!
Tenho interesse!
Tenho ferramentas!

Mas…
Não tenho tempo! Principalmente.
Não tenho dinheiro! Pra terceirizar.
Não tenho paciência! Pra ser quando querem.
E não tenho memória!!
- ai que ódio!

Há um tempo atrás eu não tinha é cabeça né?!
Então não tá dando pra reclamar. É maravilhoso ter criatividade de novo! É acalmador e revigorante!

Só preciso saber me organizar de novo. 
Antes eu fazia tanta, mas tanta, coisa. 
Que fica impossível não comparar. 
Mas agora parece que o meu tempo é tão limitado. 
Sem contar que parece que eu estou tendo que escolher entre mente sã ou corpo são; pois ou eu consigo cuidar de um, ou de outro. 

Viver é uma batalha!
E estar bem em todos os âmbitos, uma guerra. 

Tanta coisa eu queria agora, que simplesmente não dá!
 
Pra mim a vida é composta de diversos momentos difíceis e inadiáveis. 
:(


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